This post has been rumbling in my head for a week now. It’s the only thing I’ve thought of to write in a while. Last week my sister and I went to a church where, previously unbeknown to us, a one-man drama was planned to utilize the entire service. He’s a professional and the message was powerful: think real careful-like about what you’re doing on earth and what you’re storing up in heaven. It gave me the will to fight again for things I had been giving up on slowly. The cool thing was that my girlfriend got the same message at a different church and she let me know later that we were both on the same team as far as relationship goals, which was nice. Now that I write it, it becomes pretty watered down. It is cool, in case you haven’t picked up on that. So that was the first part of church drama.
Part two is the standard church drama. My girlfriend shared some personal information with a few friends who also hold various church positions. A few days later, various people who barely know her were asking her if she was ‘okay’ and ‘getting better’. Here’s a touchy subject for me when it comes to churches. I believe everyone is showing true concern for a church member when they share information like this. In the end, though, it becomes gossip and that’s some happy horseshit when random people approach with vague condolences so one doesn’t know how and how much they know. That’s just bad. The weird thing is that all those she spoke with were very supportive and close to her. So she doesn’t who or how the church rumor mill got a hold of that one. Hard to trust a church and not feel judged by them in situation such as that (I’m speaking personally here).
Should we then take a stance of ignorance then? I don’t think so. But I think the proper thing would be to either ask the person involved for clarification or stop the rumor circulation.
So I don’t really feel I’m communicating well today. Moving on.
Time… goes marching on. I don’t feel i’m using my time all that well these days. But i’m kind of in a bind when i say that because most of my free time is spent with my girlfriend, and that’s not bad by any means. At the same time, I need balance because other areas of my life haven’t received as much attention as i think they should. So where’s the balance? A relationship needs time spent on it to grow, but personal development needs to occur also. For example, I think I should blog more than I have been. Maybe I should examine how I spend time when I’m alone instead of just with my girlfriend.
It seems kind of insulting to her to say ‘i’d rather blog than spend time with you’.
And that’s all I’ve got. I’m kinda frustrate by this blog. Hope you get the message. Especially after reading my blogging neighbor’s latest, my laborious ramblings seem ridiculous.